First entry

Well, this is the official first entry of my new blog.  Don't need anything fancy, just a place to record my thoughts, so that I can reflect  on them later.  I always have so much in my mind, I love the idea of being able to get these thoughts out of my head, and on to "paper" so to speak...lol.  I will be talking to you a lot in this blog, Xavier.  There are so many things I want to tell you, but you are still too young to hear them, and for now, I am trying so hard to protect you from the truth to shelter you from the pain I know you will inevitably feel one day due to the utter failure of your father.  Until then, it is 5:30 in the morning, and I don't know what the heck I am even doing awake.(probably too much on my mind, which is the whole point of this blog)  Hopefully this will be a daily vent session for me, and something I can share with you my son, when you are old enough to understand.  Until then, good night, or good morning...lol